Unmotivated Me

Today is one of those days where I am feeling highly unmotivated. The work day stretches out before me and time seems to slip by as slowly as.... well.... as slowly as me trying to come up with an original metaphor for slowness on a highly unmotivated day.

My to-do list is not very long, and unfortunately for me the few things on the agenda just aren't too appealing right now. What I have to do is not what I wish I could be doing, but I don't wish to start doing what I have to do because the sooner I start doing what I have to do, the sooner I'll be done doing it and the sooner I'll be wishing I had something more to be doing.... Sigh.

But this morning I read through Galatians. One familiar verse has been in the back of my mind ever since, but I find myself wrestling with it even now.

Galatians 6:9
"Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary."

It sounds simple enough, but I guess in my unmotivated state I don't really believe it this morning. If I really did, if I truly believed that someday I will reap if I don't grow weary, then I think I would be feeling a little more motivated this morning.

My dilemma is that I find myself asking what Paul really means by "doing good." In the verse directly following He writes, "So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of faith." My frustration is that when I'm sitting at my desk, typing and bookkeeping and all manner of office working, it is hard to feel like the things I do are really having an impact on people, really doing them any good.

When I read this verse, I can't help but think, "Is what I'm doing really good?"

This morning I admit that I find myself "losing heart" a little, and "growing weary" of my current situation. I desperately want to make the most of every opportunity to do good, just as this verse commands, but sometimes I think I need to be reminded that those opportunities are always before me, regardless of my circumstances and how I feel about them. If God commands it of me, He certainly provides a means and an opportunity to obey.

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